I've been led by the universe, to and fro, back and forth and 'round curves and bends. When called, I answer, regardless of feedback I may receive from others; fearlessly and without hesitation, I grab ahold it's hand and off I go trotting in tandem and rhythm with the Universe. It isn't until about the midway point that panic and "freak out" (I allow and recognize the feelings then check the shit out of them, then all is right with the world again) mode begins to seep through the cracks of my worn and aged skin as it attempts to makes it way into and settle in my spirit.
While on my "blunderous" excursions, I've met very few strangers, as I'm probably as friendly as it gets. I'm completely fascinated by humans. Attracting my tribe and creating my family came with complete and utter ease. Actually, it was one of the things I looked forward to most when preparing to begin a new journey. I'd become full of glee and "sparklys" when thinking of all the amazing folks I'd encounter, run into, befriend and ultimately family would organically unfold.
One of the downfalls or shall I say "side effects" of frequent "journeying" is, that the "family" you were either born into or created becomes thinner and thinner and more and more scarce. And, it then becomes imperative that if you decide to keep trekking, that you create a solid network as you continue on.
I must say however, it becomes more and more challenging to do so the older I become. I'm sure there are many, many variables, but one of them is, I'm not as friendly as I once was. I'm more reserved and it takes me longer to even engage. I used to be sooo carefree and engage most everything (thank God, I've learned the valuable lessons of being far more discerning), now, I sit back in the cut like CIA and decide if I'm interested in engaging or not. What's interesting about this is, even though I was uber-friendly just a few years ago and would talk to just about anyone, I was not on any level in tuned with my "stranger danger" alarm; but not just that, I wasn't at all connected to these people. I would just engage on surface while protecting my gooey insides.
Now, I'm ultra connected and I pick up the energy of folks almost immediately as I only engage those that resonates within my spirit. I actually see folks now, I can see through their well-veiled windows, straight to their core. Which brings me back to my original point about finding your tribe at 40+--it's so much more difficult to do now as I'm only interested in building friendships and being vulnerable with healthy folks with good intentions and execution. I'm sure many others in my age group feels the same way, so maybe we're just protecting ourselves, to our own detriment.
Or, maybe we're going about it the wrong way--I'm finding just as I've outgrown many social scenes, so had I outgrown my thought process about attracting my tribe. I no longer go places with the intentions of meeting people; now, I simply manifest my intentions, let it go and go about my life without worry nor concerns as I have full faith that the universe will provide for me and support me in all facets of my life, including providing the communities and networks I belong to.
Namaste and many blessings
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